manynovel Chapter 239 Denial of Everything
Chapter 239 Denial of Everything
[I've heard some of it.] I remembered the fragments that Madara had mentioned, saying that Rin had been the Three-Tails Jinchūriki.
At that time, I still didn't understand why the ninja of Konoha would become the Jinchuriki of the Tailed Beast of the Hidden Mist Village.
But at this moment, I seem to understand something.
[Did Lin die from the attack of the Hidden Mist Village ninja? ]
Teacher Kakashi responded quickly: [Did Uchiha Madara tell you again? He and you have had many exchanges? ]
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[I don't mean anything else, I'm just a little worried. His purpose is unclear, and it's hard to say whether he is targeting you with bad intentions.]
[I thought that with Kakashi's personality, he would doubt whether Kirigakure had reached some kind of cooperation with him.]
[…I did think so. However, considering the current behavior of the Hidden Mist Village, I don’t think you will be on the same path.]
I said with mixed feelings: [Teacher Kakashi has become smarter.]
「Your attitude towards using honorifics has become much more casual... But, never mind, I have no right to say anything...」
Sensei Kakashi smiled bitterly, and the surrounding environment changed again.
The Fourth Hokage rescued Kakashi and Rin, and it seemed as if the story had come to an end.
Rejoicing at having survived the disaster, Kakashi was on the side of Minato Namikaze, while Rin was on the other side, with her hands behind her back, looking up at the sky.
The wind blew up her hair and skirt, making people mistakenly believe that everything would be settled.
The most heroic climax of the story has passed, and at the end, the surviving protagonist will live a peaceful, happy and fulfilling life.
Whether it is a novel, a movie, or a TV series, this kind of rhythm is used to allow the audience's emotions to land smoothly.
If the fighting is endless, no matter how intense, thrilling and exciting the fighting is, the audience will soon become tired and bored.
...But this is not a novel, a movie or a TV series, this is the real life of a ninja.
There is no director to arrange the plot according to the rhythm that is most comfortable for humans. They cannot stop even if they want to. They can only grit their teeth, endure the fatigue, and move forward desperately, because stopping means death.
But... the end of being unable to stop is still death in the end.
In Kakashi's memory, there was a long war that seemed to have no end, with casualties increasing every day, and orders that were more urgent than the last, and tasks that were more important than the last.
Don't question orders and don't think about the situation, because once you realize how dangerous the situation is, you will doubt whether you can win. Once you doubt, you will feel despair and waver.
Obey, obey, just obey;
Then fight, fight, and keep fighting as long as you can move.
There is no need to care about the meaning, because only by killing the enemy can you survive.
The more enemies you kill, the more people on your side will survive.
It seems that people have become tools that only know how to wield weapons.
Life has become the most dispensable and lightest thing.
He blocked his ears and didn't listen to the list of casualties; he closed his mouth and didn't ask about other friends' recent situation; he couldn't cover his eyes, so he just stared closely at the only companion beside him -
No matter how many people are lost, as long as Lin is still here...
As long as he could protect Lin, he would be able to bear it no matter how many news of death he heard, how many names of the fallen soldiers he saw, or how many friends were injured, disabled, or dead after the war.
As long as Lin was by his side, the two of them could share all the suffering in the world.
As long as the two of them could be together, it seemed that Obito could also coexist in the world through the bond between them.
[If I were stronger... If I were more useful... If I could make better judgments...]
I watched Rin and Kakashi encounter the enemies of the Hidden Mist Village as Kakashi murmured dejectedly, watched Rin become the Three-Tails Jinchuriki, and watched Kakashi's Raikiri pierce through her chest...
In other words, she used her chest to meet Kakashi's Raikiri.
My heart was so heavy that I could hardly breathe.
If this plan was formulated by the Hidden Mist Village, who would be the Mizukage who would be in control of the Hidden Mist Village at that time... ?
Karatachi Yagura? Or... Uchiha Madara?
It suddenly occurred to me that many people in the current Mist Village must have participated in this war.
Did Qing, who possesses the Byakugan, obtain the Byakugan during the Third Ninja World War?
Where is Mei Terumi?
Is she also active on some battlefield at this moment?
There is even Zabuza...
At his age...can he wield a beheading sword now?
I thought again of Grandma Chiyo from the Sand Village, whose son and daughter-in-law died at the hands of Kakashi's father.
Kill and kill, kill and kill, the enemy seems to be the most ferocious monster in the world.
But Mei Terumi and Zabuza are not bad people...
Of course, Kakashi Hatake’s father is a good person, but what kind of people are Chiyo’s son and daughter-in-law?
I seemed to be torn in two. The existence of Obito and Rin had a special meaning to me. If I had never come into contact with the Hidden Mist Village, I would definitely hate her former enemies with all my heart at this moment, and hate those bastards who refused to let Konoha go and refused to let the people of Konoha be reunited.
But now I live in the Hidden Mist Village, and I know that the ninjas in the Hidden Mist Village are also ordinary people.
They are actually no different from the ninjas of Konoha. They all have the same joys and sorrows, the same people who are most important and cherished to them, the same grief and collapse over the death of relatives and friends, and the same despair, resentment and exhaustion from the long and endless war.
The bond between Kakashi-sensei, Obito, and Rin is so strong that it's heartbreaking when it breaks, but they are definitely not the only three people in this world who are so inseparable.
There are countless teams like this that have been broken up, countless "Obito" who died trying to save important companions, countless "Rin" who would rather die because they could not save their companions, and countless "Kakashi" who survived alone but with pain that they could never let go.
I have used my eye techniques to view the memories of many ninjas from the Hidden Mist Village. Beneath their seemingly cold-blooded, ferocious and cruel appearance, they are also broken and crying souls.
I whispered softly: [What exactly caused this war? How important is the reason to be worth such a painful price? ]
[Ninjas don't ask for reasons.] Kakashi-sensei said, [Ninjas... just follow orders.]
[…Have you never thought about it? Have you never thought about why Rin and Obito died? ]
[To protect Konoha. ]
[Just that?!] I once accepted this reason and thought it was enough to explain everything, but now I feel it is too superficial and thin. [This is just the most superficial reason! What exactly took their lives? What caused the war?! Have you ever thought about finding the most fundamental reason?!]
[The most fundamental reason is nothing more than interests. Other countries attack for their own interests, and we fight back to protect our own interests. We kill others, and others kill us. ]
[Do you accept this rule? Do you agree that this is how the world works?] I can't accept it. [If, if you think that taking lives for profit is understandable, then don't you also accept that the deaths of Obito and Rin are understandable!? If killing each other because of different positions is normal and understandable, then there is no distinction between justice and injustice in this world!]
[Are you looking for justice in the world of ninjas?] Kakashi sighed softly: [Asaro... I thought you had matured a lot, but in some ways, you are still so naive. You were a ninja of Konoha, and later went to the Hidden Mist Village. In the eyes of most people, this means defection, but it also gave you a broader vision. Your position is no longer limited to Konoha Village, but you can see a wider world. But I can't. I have always been a ninja of Konoha. Konoha's interests are my interests, and Konoha's enemies are my enemies.]
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At this moment, the Kakashi in front of him was so clearly distinguished from the future Kakashi teacher.
Kakashi was right, he had always been a ninja of Konoha, so he could only look at the world from Konoha's perspective. Because he understood this feeling, he could also understand those enemies who stood on the side of his own village.
In this way, even if your companions die, you cannot blame the enemy, but can only blame yourself for not being as skilled as them - because you and the enemy are doing the same thing.
Too narrow...
The man in front of me, he used to look so experienced, mature and steady, but at this moment, I felt that his narrow vision made me feel disgusted.
But it wasn't his fault.
Under the one country one village system, this is the only education he can receive. Will anyone teach them to think from the perspective of other countries?
The future teacher Kakashi may have been so narrow-minded before Uchiha Sasuke ruled the ninja world. But later, he was able to live and fight with ninjas from other countries, and he was not just a ninja of Konoha.
I believe that after experiencing so much, Kakashi's views at that time must be different from those of Kakashi now.
I always thought Kakashi-sensei was a hero.
But...the one who dies to protect the village and his companions is certainly a hero of the village, but...the one who protects everyone is a hero of all mankind.
I suddenly felt at ease and dropped the honorific.
Maybe it's because I'm no longer a ninja of Konoha, I can't respect Kakashi at this moment.
I cannot agree with his thoughts, I cannot agree with his views on the world, and I strongly want to deny everything he says.
My tone became much stronger: [Justice may be difficult to define, but you can't just take it for granted that there is no justice in the ninja world. There is a big difference between a just war and an unjust war! There is also a big difference between dying for justice and dying for injustice! ]
Kakashi obviously noticed the change in my attitude, he smiled and said: [Do you hate me? ]
I hate his smile that makes him think he has everything under control. I glared at him and said, "I don't hate you for the reasons you think. You are not mean, and the deaths of Rin and Obito are not your fault."
[Whose fault is this? If I don't take the blame on myself, if I can't even take responsibility for the death of my companions... I'm already bad enough, but at least I can't be a coward anymore. I have to bear this. The weight of their lives, I am determined to carry that weight and live with them. ]
I don't think Kakashi is mean, I think he's pitiful.
It's so pathetic that it makes me angry.
[Will what you do help Rin and Obito? Except making your life even worse? Maybe I should comfort you and advise you, but I really can't think of anything good to say. I also tried to convince myself that I was just a bystander of a memory, so how could I be qualified to judge you who experienced all this personally? You will only suffer more than me. I have no position, and I have no right to point fingers at your decision. And when you showed me all this... at that time, you were just a child. But——]
Kakashi took my anger well and remained calm: [But?]
[But what makes me angry is that you have grown up like this! Didn’t their deaths make you think about the world a little bit? ! ]