manynovel Chapter 226 If there is one day
Chapter 226 If there is one day
Uchiha Madara said: "But I was invited by Chaolu herself. Excuse me, I will not leave, I will stay here forever."
Itachi-sensei looked at him, and I looked at him as well, grabbing Itachi-sensei's sleeve.
I have a lot of things I want to say to Itachi now, but the relationship between Uchiha Madara and Itachi doesn't seem to be very good.
I'm not sure if it's safe for me to communicate with Itachi-sensei in the spirit world while Uchiha Madara is around.
Even though Itachi could stay in the illusion for a long time and only a moment would pass in reality, for a strong man like Uchiha Madara, it was often enough to gain the upper hand for a moment to make a move.
I looked up at Teacher Itachi. As we communicated mentally more frequently, we understood each other better and better.
With just a look or a gesture, we can understand each other's thoughts.
Teacher Itachi received my signal - I don't know what happened between him and Uchiha Madara, so let him judge and decide whether he can trust Uchiha Madara not to take action so that we can have a private communication.
He patted my shoulder gently in a soothing manner, and I knew he didn't think it was the right time.
"I say, you guys..." Uchiha Madara crossed his arms, "Are you pretending to be in sync with each other here?"
And what is it that Uchiha Madara doesn't care about doing?
He continued to practice under the guidance of Itachi-sensei, while preparing apology gifts for Shikamaru and Naruto.
Shikamaru is not a fan of Fuuka Koyuki, but her time-traveling movie has special meaning to us.
Does Shikamaru still remember what he said at that time?
[Even if the world is destroyed, I will choose to save you. ]
He was still very young at that time, and several years have passed, so it is possible that he has forgotten.
However, I would like to give him the autographed photo of me in which Fenghua Xiaoxue's style is very similar to the outfit in "I Traveled Across Time to See You".
The front of the photo had her signature printed on it, while the back was blank.
I want to write something to express my apology to Shikamaru, but what should I write?
Saving the world means saving you?
...Hmm, it feels like Shikamaru is just here by chance...
Saving you is equivalent to saving the world?
This seems to be ok, but it needs further consideration.
【For me, saving you means saving the world. 】
As for Naruto, he seems to like Fuuka Koyuki very much. How about giving him the remaining two stills?
If you want to leave a message...
Anyway, first of all, you have to say "I'm sorry".
sorry……
What are you sorry about?
I'm sorry, but because I hope you can become stronger, I think you shouldn't pay too much attention to me?
This is too arrogant and self-righteous...
I'm sorry for making you so worried?
I'm sorry, you came to save me, but I let you down?
I'm sorry, but I'm on the side of those who you consider to be sinners and traitors?
But generally speaking, after an apology, the sincere thing to do is to correct the mistake. Can I correct it?
After apologizing, if I still stand with Itachi-sensei, will Shikamaru and Naruto really think that my apology is sincere?
If you can't correct it, then there's no point in apologizing. Shouldn't we just let them misunderstand until the end, and then apologize together when we can be honest about everything?
No! If I do that, I'll become a typical self-centered and hateful Uchiha!
Fortunately, Uchiha Madara is not there 24 hours a day. There are times when he leaves alone and no one knows what he is going to do. Maybe other subordinates want to contact him about something and need him to make a decision.
But Itachi-sensei and I were finally able to connect to the spirit world and communicate privately.
"You seem to have something to say to me." Teacher Itachi asked me, "What happened?"
"I... um..." But when the time came, I found it a little difficult to say.
However, if even Itachi-sensei can't tell it in this world, then there is no one else I can talk to.
Besides, besides Shikamaru, Itachi-sensei's wisdom must be the only one who can help me.
I finally said it out loud: "Teacher Itachi, if I feel that Uchiha Madara is...attractive when I'm with him, is that normal?"
Itachi-sensei was slightly stunned, "What does that mean...does it mean that you have developed feelings for him?"
"Well... I just sometimes think, how nice it would be if he and I were on the same path... I always feel that he is not a cold-blooded tyrant at all, but I do know that he once ruthlessly ravaged Kirigakure and made it miserable. My reason tells me that it is stupid to have any feelings for him, but his behavior often makes me feel... it's a pity that he is a bad person."
"..."
Seeing that Itachi-sensei didn't say anything, I was worried that he would think I was crazy, so I quickly explained: "When I realized it, I felt it was not good, so I immediately controlled it! I kept my distance and treated him very coldly. If we have to fight one day, I will definitely not show mercy to him!"
"...There's no need to be so nervous, Asaroya." Itachi-sensei pondered for a moment, "At your age, it's normal to be curious about the opposite sex. Besides, although Uchiha Madara is much older than you, it's hard to tell from his appearance that he's an elderly man. People rely more on their eyes and senses to confirm facts, so even if you find him attractive, it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you."
It's rare for Itachi-sensei to say so many words in one breath.
"Besides, as a legendary figure, Uchiha Madara's most notable feature is not his age or appearance. He is a strong man that countless people look up to, and his strength is his most admired charm."
Itachi-sensei didn't blame me out of surprise or fiercely deny me, which made me feel relieved.
"But, if it's Deidara, although I feel sad, knowing that we can't go the same way, I just need to not meet him again. But Uchiha Madara can't be cut off so easily... What should I do?"
"Asaka, how much do you know about Uchiha Madara?"
I thought about it carefully. "I didn't have much contact with him before, and the most profound impression I had was that he was very strong and dangerous. His ability... made me feel very difficult. But in the past few days of getting along with him, I have seen a lot of his unknown side that I didn't know before. For example, he is obviously very ruthless to others, but his attitude towards me makes me seem very special... Other than that, he is just like an ordinary person in life, which makes me feel very different. He will suddenly show off, make jokes, and act like a fool... It makes people feel that it's not that scary to get close to him."
"Let's talk about the first point." Itachi-sensei analyzed in a very rational tone: "His hollowness does make it very difficult to defeat or kill him. When a person encounters an enemy that he cannot get rid of, but cannot defeat, he may force himself to have a good impression of the other party. Because once that illusion appears, the shame of defeat will also be weakened. Many people will brag about the winner who defeated them for this reason. Between men, this is often regarded as a generous behavior of sympathy for each other."
I frowned. "But it sounds cowardly when I say it this way... Am I such a coward?"
"It's just that this situation happened." Itachi-sensei said calmly, "As for the second point, I don't know what happened during your time together, but Chaolu... to judge whether a person is worth investing in, you can't look at whether the other person treats you specially or how special he is. You have to look at how he treats strangers. People's minds change, and you can't guarantee that you will always be special to someone, but at least you should choose someone who can respect you even if you are no longer special."
"I'm thinking..." I've been thinking about this for the past few days: "Am I still too eager to get recognition from others? Although Uchiha Madara did a lot of bad things, no one can deny that he was very good at doing those things... Such a great person is very different to me. The feeling of being seen, recognized, and affirmed of my value will be even stronger."
"So you don't necessarily fall in love with Uchiha Madara." Teacher Itachi said, "Maybe you just fall in love with yourself, who is by his side and can be taken seriously by such a strong man."
I immediately felt more relaxed: "If that's the case! I'll be relieved!"
"It happens often," Itachi-sensei comforted me, "When you like someone, it's often because the other person has something you want. Outstanding looks, gentle character, or unique personality... These are things you desire but think you don't have, so you think that if you can get that person who has these, the other person can complete your life, make you more complete, change your boring life, and get complete happiness."
"So, I think what makes him attractive is actually what I want..." I thought, "I want to be as strong as him. I hope I can have his unwavering determination to achieve his goals. I also want his attitude of being able to handle all kinds of pressure with ease."
Itachi-sensei said: "But that is often the least likely to lead to happiness."
I was puzzled and asked, “Why?”
"Because your liking for the other person is not based on a true understanding of what the other person is like, but is just your own fantasy. When you impose your fantasy on others, it's like trying to fish for the reflection of the moon on the water surface, and in the end you can only get a handful of water. The water in your painful hand is too different from the moon in your fantasy, isn't it too futile?"
"Itachi-sensei, you think so clearly..." I sighed, "With such clear thoughts, how can Itachi-sensei still like someone else?"
Itachi-sensei said calmly, "You will like it if you are supposed to."
"What would Itachi-sensei's love be like?" I asked curiously, "Not your own fantasy, but truly falling in love with a real person...what would that be like?"
"Don't fantasize." Itachi-sensei said in a simple tone, "Don't have any expectations of her. Observe calmly, get to know her slowly, see her strengths and weaknesses, her good and bad... Once you are sure of what kind of person she is, you can make a judgment."
"What judgment?"
"Judge your own situation and decide whether or not you want to like the other person."
"Can you judge for yourself if you like someone?"
"Yes. As long as you know that you are complete enough and don't need another person to make you complete." Teacher Itachi said: "When you desire something that you don't know if you can get, you will feel nervous and worried about gains and losses, but if you don't ask for anything else from the other person, the other person will not be able to influence your decision."
"But if you like someone, don't you want them to like you too?"
"I can only decide who I am and whether or not I like someone, but I cannot decide whether or not the other person likes me."
I became more and more curious: "Then how would Itachi-sensei pursue the person he likes?"
"I haven't thought about...who I'd like to be with. Because I think that in my current situation, it's not appropriate for me to like anyone."
"What if? What if Itachi-sensei decides to like someone?"
Itachi-sensei was silent for a moment, "If you must make an assumption... probably just do everything in your power to make her happy."
"Hey, you're not going to confess?"
"…I'm not very good at that. But I'll make it clear to her that I treat her differently than I treat others, and then I'll wait for her response."
"Itachi-sensei is such a genius, but there are things he is not good at?" I laughed curiously, "But I really can't imagine Itachi-sensei saying 'I like you' to others!"
But I looked at Itachi-sensei's face and tried to imagine his various expressions. I felt that it was not impossible to imagine it: "Hey, actually Itachi-sensei can say whatever he wants to say, right?"
"Of course I can say it. No one has forbidden me from saying I like someone."
What Itachi-sensei said occasionally had a very dry and humorous effect.
Sometimes I would be amused by him, but he always looked confused and didn't understand what was so funny.
I asked him, hasn’t anyone found what he says interesting sometimes before?
Instead, he said that my sense of humor was weird.
What's so weird about my laugh!
...Is it really that my sense of humor is weird?
"Then if the other person doesn't like you, won't you be sad?"
"As long as I know that she is living well in the world, I will be happy enough."
"Eh... it sounds like a non-possessive love..." I was a little confused. "The books all say that love is very possessive, but this is the first time I've heard of the situation Itachi-sensei described. What if the other person changes his mind and wants to leave after being with Itachi-sensei?"
"To terminate a relationship, only one party needs to propose it."
"Itachi-sensei won't try to keep you?"
"...It depends on the situation. If there are things she wants me to change that I can change, I might try my best. But if it's something I can't change... My ability is not Kotoamatsukami, and unless I use illusion, I can't control whether she likes me or not. In this case, I can only accept it."
I wrinkled my nose. "That sounds a bit cold. Is this what adult love is?"
"At your age... maybe you prefer a passionate, vigorous relationship... but I think a gentle relationship can last longer."
I was still trying to digest what he said when Itachi-sensei suddenly said, "Uchiha Madara is back."
Before we looked into each other's Sharingan and entered the spiritual world, we sat together under a tree. When the connection was disconnected, I found that I had leaned on Itachi-sensei's shoulder without knowing when.
He lowered his eyes to look at me and helped me brush away a leaf that fell on my head.
Uchiha Madara stopped three steps away from us and said in a strange tone: "...Did I disturb your love affair?"
After Itachi-sensei sorted out my previous confused mood, I feel much calmer and sober when I see him now.
I realized that I did have a lot of fantasies about him. Those fantasies were like pink bubbles, shrouding Uchiha Madara and making him look hazy and beautiful. But when I realized that the bubble was created by myself, it was like I had popped it with my own hands.
Uchiha Madara looks...
Well, it’s just Uchiha Madara.
I stood up and smiled happily at Mr. Itachi, "Thank you, Mr. Itachi!"
Teacher Itachi stared at me, and probably noticed the change in me, and his expression relaxed a lot.
...Although he told me that it was normal to like Uchiha Madara, he still thought it would be better not to like Uchiha Madara.
Despite this, he continued to affirm me because he respected my feelings.
Itachi-sensei is indeed a very gentle person.
The one Sasuke wanted to kill was such a gentle brother...
I can understand Sasuke's resentment, but being around Itachi-sensei, I also increasingly understand what kind of person he is.
If one day they meet...