manynovel Chapter 503 Heart-to-heart talk, am I hypocritical?
Chapter 503 Heart-to-heart talk, am I hypocritical?
After Xu Xingyu and Gu Yuena returned to the hotel room, Xu Xingyu felt a little heavy.
His mind kept replaying the discussion with Xu Tianran. At first, he didn't take it seriously.
But after gradually recalling that conversation, he realized his contradictions and confusions on some issues.
Gu Yuena keenly noticed the change in Xu Xingyu's mood and asked with concern: "Xingyu, what's wrong with you? You don't look very happy."
Xu Xingyu was silent for a moment, and finally spoke: "Na'er, what do you think of me?"
Gu Yuena was stunned. She had never thought that Xu Xingyu would ask such a question: "Why do you ask this suddenly?"
Xu Xingyu smiled bitterly and shook her head: "I just thought of the previous conversation with Xu Tianran."
"Just like he said, I always unconsciously consider the interests of Qi Ling Tower and Xing Luo Empire together."
"Although I say noble things, I actually have my own selfish motives."
"Will I not appear hypocritical or even a little hypocritical?"
Gu Yuena looked at Xu Xingyu seriously: "Why do you think so? Everyone has their own selfish desires, which doesn't mean you are hypocritical."
"I don't think there's anything wrong with you considering Jiujiu and your hometown."
In response, Xu Xingyu shook her head and said, "I am not just referring to my questions about the Qi Ling Tower and the Xing Luo Empire."
"It was also the same when I helped Jiang Nannan treat her illness and helped Dong'er separate Tang San's consciousness."
"Even if part of the reason I helped was out of kindness, wasn't the bigger reason I chose to help because they could bring me more benefits?"
"Nan Nan is because she has been recognized by the Moon Goddess, and Dong Er is because it gives her an extra card to beat Tang San."
"From this perspective, am I not approaching them purely for the purpose of taking advantage of them?"
Xu Xingyu sighed: "All along, because of Lan Xing's prejudice against Tang San in my previous life, I have always been disgusted with that hypocrite Tang San and don't want to become a person like him."
"But now, I find myself becoming like him without realizing it, or even worse than him."
Gu Yuena gently held Xu Xingyu's hand and said softly: "Xingyu, in fact, everyone has some double standards in their hearts."
"For example, I should have put the interests of the soul beast clan first, but after meeting you, I unknowingly put you first and put my responsibilities second."
Xu Xingyu raised her head and looked at Gu Yuena, a hint of doubt and confusion flashed in her eyes.
Gu Yuena continued, "Double standards themselves are not terrible. Everyone has their own double standards."
"It's just that a person will appear hypocritical because of this, and it depends on the mentality behind their actions."
"You just said that you helped them out of your own interests, but do you think they really can't think of this? There is no such thing as a person who would do something good for no reason."
"So even if they know you have your own purpose, why would they choose to follow you and even fall in love with you?"
"That's because I think they, like me, can see your heart from your actions."
"Everything you have done so far has been done for all the people you have been carrying."
"You said that the Qiling Tower is clearly neutral, but you are leaning towards the Xingluo Empire. Is this a problem?"
"But why do you prefer the Star Luo Empire? Is it because of your sense of belonging to the Star Luo Empire?"
"No, that's because you care about Jiujiu and your grandfather who lives in the Xingluo Empire. One day in the near future, you will be in a dilemma about this."
"The same is true for Jiang Nannan. Even if Jiang Nannan is qualified to inherit the Moon Goddess throne, you, who have the Blue Star Book, should know that there are better candidates."
"For example, Zhang Lexuan from Shrek. Not only is she more talented, her martial spirit is more suitable, but she is also more beautiful. We can completely ignore Jiang Nannan and let her original fate happen, and then give the position of Moon Goddess to Zhang Lexuan."
"But you didn't do that. You chose to help her, so why did you help her?"
"This... apart from being a bit forgetful of one's principles for the sake of beauty, maybe he is also a bit dissatisfied with her original fate?" Xu Xingyu answered uncertainly.
"That's right. Since you contacted Nan Nan with this intention, why do you have to feel guilty about it?"
"Men, whether they are human or soul beasts, all have lustful hearts. There is nothing to be ashamed of."
"What's more important is that you took action to help her."
"The same thing happened with Wang Dong'er. Don't forget that I have also read the books about Douluo Continent in your memory."
"So I also know what kind of miserable end Dong'er ended up in."
"I believe that everyone would be angry about such a fate. Even if they have the ability, not everyone, but most people would choose to help and try to change this cruel fate."
"Even if you have your own selfish motives, the reason you take action is ultimately because you want to help them and change their fate."
"So I believe that you are definitely not a hypocritical person. You cannot be called an absolutely righteous person, but at least you are a person who moves forward for the expectations given to you by the people you carry."
Xu Xingyu felt the sincerity in Gu Yuena's words, and her originally impetuous heart gradually calmed down: "Thank you, Na'er. Your words make me feel much more at ease."
Gu Yuena smiled and said, "You must believe in your choice and stick to the path you have chosen. Even if you regret it in the future, you must accept it because that is the path you have chosen."
Hearing this, Xu Xingyu nodded, and the restlessness in her heart gradually dissipated.
He was fully aware of the responsibilities he shouldered and that the road ahead was full of challenges, but with Gu Yuena's support, he became more determined in his beliefs.
Seeing that Xu Xingyu's mood had improved a little, Gu Yuena was also very happy.
She likes to look at Xu Xingyu who is full of confidence the most, because only Xu Xingyu looks the most handsome like this.
Thinking of this, Gu Yuena's cheeks flushed. Looking at Xu Xingyu like this, she felt a little hungry.
Just when he wanted to take a bite, Xu Xingyu stopped him with the excuse that he had to do some serious work.
Humph, aren’t the things that Xingyu and I are dealing with serious matters?
So that night Xu Xingyu was forced to have a fruit platter as a midnight snack with Gu Yuena.
These include but are not limited to cherries, peaches, honeydew melon, watermelon, bananas, fruit milkshakes and more.
It was a long night.