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"After all, she has her own ambitions, and I have my own preferred path." She gazed at the scene before her, as if she were seeing a future of separation.
"I see." Jiang Kehan also looked ahead. She knew that this was the normal relationship between witches: they comforted each other but were slightly distant.
Like shining stars in the sky, their intersecting lights form the entire starry sky.
“But there’s no need to worry about so-called true feelings,” Jiang Kehan asked doubtfully. “After all, it’s a normal witch relationship.”
Ya Rou fell silent for a moment, truly resembling a young lady from a wealthy family, exuding a sense of loneliness.
"But the thought of someone opening up to me makes me very uneasy."
She shrank back, her gaze devoid of any emotion.
"After all, the only heart I can show to others is emptiness."
"Jiang Kehan, you should have noticed by now, after all, you're such a sensitive person, so sensitive that it's almost annoying."
Ya Rou could tell from the moment they met that Jiang Kehan was the complete opposite of her, which is why she encouraged Jiang Kehan.
Therefore, she knew that she would never reach the point of exchanging true feelings with the other person, never.
That's why Ya Rou opened up to Jiang Ke Han and told her about her fears.
"Oh, you mean you're playing the role that other people need to be, right?" Jiang Kehan nodded honestly. "I did notice. After all, it might be a coincidence once, but you always breathe on me, which is obviously intentional."
Jiang Kehan was experienced in this area. When she first met Bo Yuxue, the other party perfectly matched the image of a well-behaved girl in her mind, but it was all an act!
She was even tricked by Bo Yuxue into working illegally, which was utterly inhumane!
However, after becoming friends, the other party still made amends.
“I’m their therapist, so I have to treat them the way they need to be treated.” Ya Rou looked at Xiao Ting, clearly referring to the members of the Whirlpool Society.
"Without realizing it, I had fewer and fewer of my own thoughts, and gradually became like a mirror—a mirror that only reacts to the actions of others."
"It's hard to imagine that when I'm being sincere with other people, I might unconsciously become the kind of person they want me to be."
Ya Rou frowned, looking somewhat uncomfortable.
"Even if that version of me is better or more perfect than I am now, it will not be me, and it will never be my true self."
"I'm afraid that I'll become someone I don't recognize."
Jiang Kehan finally understood why the other party had said that they might encounter a yandere when entering the White Queen's kingdom.
What Ya Rou fears is not actually a yandere, but that she will subconsciously follow the yandere's love and become the person the other person sees her as.
To be honest, it's a little scary.
Jiang Kehan also shrank back, placed her hand on Ya Rou's shoulder, and spoke in a tone that suggested she was a big sister who was very open and honest with everyone.
"Isn't it enough as long as the person you love most is yourself?" she said slowly, gazing at the sky with a touch of melancholy, as if reminiscing.
"After all, the first person you should love and the one you should truly love is yourself, so never let yourself have any regrets."
Ugh?
Ya Rou looked at Jiang Kehan in surprise, suddenly at a loss for words.
Do you love yourself?
Chapter 233 Pearl Sea
Ya Rou raised her head, gazing at the rising white mist before her, and gently placed her hand on her chest.
Although Jiang Kehan put it simply, taking care of oneself is a very difficult thing.
It may stem from habitual neglect, or it may stem from... one's own inadequacy.
Ya Rou is well aware of what her true self looks like when she's playing a role; it's far from beautiful, and even somewhat selfish.
The magic mirror is right. She is not a truly elegant and noble aristocrat, but a down-on-her-luck young lady with an incongruous stubbornness and inferiority complex.
Can she really accept being so ugly?
Ya Rou wasn't in a hurry to figure it out. She looked at the increasingly thick white fog in front of her and knew that they had arrived at the so-called Pearl Sea.
This place may harbor the deepest fears within her.
"Oh my, I never expected it to look like this!" The usually composed Louis looked at the scene before him with some surprise, and made a cute sound like a little girl.
"Yes, I never expected this." Jiang Kehan took a deep breath and looked at this "sea" that was not actually a sea with some shock.
She had thought that the magical appearance of the sky and sea was the end of the "sea," but the scene here seemed to be smiling at her, telling her that it was not.
The surrounding white mist stopped in front of the sea. They emerged from the mist as if they had arrived directly on a summer island, where the sun shone brightly and the breeze was gentle.
The so-called Pearl Sea is a smooth, pure white mirror, as vast as the sea, with no end in sight.
Jiang Kehan carefully stepped onto it and found that this mirror was not as easy to fall on as ice. Instead, it had a strange attraction that made people walk very steadily on it.
It's a very peculiar feeling, somewhat like putting your fingertip on an octopus's suckers.
Jiang Kehan lowered her head. She could clearly see the scene inside the mirror: countless bubbles enveloping corpses. They weren't densely packed, and the corpses inside maintained their postures before death, with peaceful and serene expressions.
"Are these pearls?" She covered her mouth. The scene wasn't frightening; rather, it was quite heartwarming.
"It's like she's in a deep sleep." Jiang Kehan squatted down and placed her hand on the mirror, unable to resist wanting to touch it closer. "And it must have been a good dream."
It seems that their deaths are just a new beginning. Here, the boundary between life and death is blurred by their stunning beauty, leaving only pure beauty.
“Look ahead.” Xiao Ting was also somewhat amazed, but unlike Jiang Kehan, she didn’t take a closer look and instead walked to the front.
"Could those rising bubbles be reserved specifically for the dying?"
Xiao Ting's words piqued Jiang Kehan's curiosity, so she stood up and walked quickly toward Xiao Ting.
Further ahead, countless bubbles rose from the mirror, forming a unique "coral reef," making the group feel as if they were in the deep sea.
Jiang Kehan saw an old squirrel, so old it was staggering as it walked, heading towards the bubble. When it reached the bubble, it showed a relieved yet somewhat hesitant expression.
The squirrel looked back with a human-like expression; it was the path it had come from, and the place where it had once lived.
Then, as if in regret or relief, it placed its hand on a bubble and immediately fell into it.
This was just the beginning. Jiang Kehan stopped and quietly watched the shocking scene.
After the squirrel entered the bubble, it seemed to enter a dreamland, lying quietly with only its expression constantly changing.
This dream is called a lifetime.
Jiang Kehan didn't know how long the squirrel had been dreaming; it could have been just a few minutes or it could have been several hours.
All she knew was that when the tear that had been hanging in the squirrel's eye for so long finally fell, the squirrel suddenly became young again, seemingly at its most beautiful.
As the tear fell, the suspended bubble began to slowly descend into the mirror, drifting forward along with the other bubbles.
"Is this the cycle of fairy tales?" Jiang Kehan stopped in her tracks, a quiet smile on her face. "Perhaps this is what death looks like in fairy tales."
"Should we follow the direction of the bubbles?" she asked, turning to look at the late-arriving White Horse Princess and Ya Rou.
Princess White Horse nodded, her voice becoming lower as if she didn't want to disturb this beautiful scene.
"Yes, it's so vast here, and it looks pretty much the same in every direction."
"The only guides for us newcomers are the bubbles that house the will of our predecessors; only by following them can we escape the Pearl Sea."
Like a witch.
Jiang Kehan looked in the direction the bubbles were spreading and suddenly understood why she felt no fear deep down, and even felt a sense of wonder.
Because whether it's people or animals that have passed away here, they are all taking care of their descendants in their own way.
It soothes the fear between life and death, bringing a certain warmth.
"Let's go!" Jiang Kehan was in high spirits. This was the first time since she saw the green worm that she was no longer anxious and had become surprisingly calm.
No, I don't want to... Ya Rou said with a cold face, reluctantly letting Xiao Ting take her hand and lead her away.
She felt somewhat apprehensive from the moment she stepped into the mirror.
Because she saw that her reflection in the mirror was mocking her.
Ya Rou has come to understand what her fears look like, even the torment that is unique to her.
She covered her head, suddenly feeling cold.
Looking around, although familiar faces were all in front of him, none of them could help him.
Only Ya Rou can see the scene, which is her own inner judgment of herself, a judgment that is contemptuous and merciless.
Even torture.
When all the pretenses are torn away, are you ready to face your true thoughts?
Ya Rou's answer was no.
She gripped Xiao Ting's hand tightly, which surprised the other woman, but she returned the grip.
"Is something wrong?" Xiao Ting knew that Ya Rou's fear was hidden here, and seeing her like this, she asked with some concern.
Although Ya Rou usually helps her with her psychological issues, she will also do what she can for her when needed.
Ke Ya Rou let go of his hand, unable to contain her fear.
She saw herself in the mirror and began to transform into the image Xiao Ting liked, becoming unlike herself.
"It's okay, I can do it." Ya Rou wiped the sweat from her forehead and smiled somewhat reluctantly.
Jiang Kehan also noticed Ya Rou's unusual behavior, so she slowed down and waited for them to gradually catch up with her.
"Have you encountered your own fears?" she asked softly. After their heart-to-heart talk, she understood better than Xiao Ting what Ya Rou was afraid of.
Ya Rou nodded with difficulty, her eyes beginning to look unfocused.
She hesitated, looking at herself in the mirror, revealing her inner self, and slowly spoke.
"I've seen a more cunning enemy, but I don't know how to deal with her."
"I don't even know how to love myself..."
Chapter 234 The Road of Torment and Understanding
what is love?
Jiang Kehan didn't know either, after all, she had never been in a relationship and was an orphan in her previous life, so she had never experienced true love and never had the chance to love someone else.
She was only in her early twenties when she transmigrated.